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I cant look at this thing anymore. bye.

wow, people can sure creep me out!
my head and face hurts
I'm just going to take more drugs and sleep

I got my wisdom teeth out yesterday and I felt pretty alright for the most of the day. Today they hurt so badly I can barely open my mouth, they keep bleeding, the gauze just makes me want to vomit, and no one is home. : (

Sometimes, I wish I can beat matt up.

I CAN'T DECIDE WHAT CAMERA TO BUY

Sony Cyber-shot DSC-T77/B
10.1-Megapixel
4x optical zoom
3.0 LCD touchscreen
Dual image stabilizers Face/smile/blink detection In-camera retouching...
http://www.circuitcity.com/ssm/Sony-Cyber-shot-DSC-T77-T-10-1-Megapixel-Digital-Camera-Brown-DSCT77T/sem/rpsm/oid/223631/rpem/ccd/productDetail.do

pricewatch.com - $279.99

Olympus Stylus 1050SW Blue
10.1MP
3x Zoom,
Zoom 2.7 LCD Shockproof and Waterproof
www.circuitcity.com/ssm/Olympus-Stylus-1050-SW-10-1-Megapixel-Digital-Camera-Blue-STYLUS1050BL/sem/rpsm/oid/223397/catOid/-16941/rpem/ccd/productDetail.do

pricewatch.com - $254.46

Fujifilm Finepix Z20fd
10.0 megapixels

I'm liking this new year. 2008 was spent understanding difficulties and overcoming them. This new year will be spent achieving goals to reach where I want to be in the future. In general I have been happy lately. The only thing I have to do is ignore the confusion in my life.

merry fuckin' christmas <3

I seriously hate everything.

Things between Matt and I have been so hard the past month and all him and I have been holding on to
lately was that after finals him and can have some solid time to work on our relationship.
I've been so confused these past few weeks, that I didn't know what step I was going to take next.
School has been kicking my ass because I can't seem to manage my time wisely.
Splitting up time between families, work, school, boyfriend, and friends. It's been a lot on my plate.
Especially, not being able to drive myself anywhere. I have to depend on someone else in able to accomplish my weekly schedules.
I feel like certain people at work have just been giving me a cold shoulder.

I've been so stressed out about family, work, money, relationships. I've been getting major back pains again. This morning my lower back was so stiff I could not get out of my bed. My dad had to come on his lunch break and help me.

I honestly do not know what to do anymore.

All I know is that I've been a bitch to Matt and I really need to make it up to him as much as I can because, I'm not ready for a break up.

Honestly for months I've been only scared, depressed, and regretful.

I like making hats. I'm over tired. Fuck you finals.

highschool musical 3 is wonderful

It's nice to get away from the negativity that surrounds my life.

Oh boy.

I hate colds!!! My dad threw out my extra credit!!! I don't know how going to finish my school work!!!

Things are going well right now. I have a huge project to do but I can find the assignment paper.

Matt realized that he has been treating me like a douche bag lately. He has been trying hard to make it up to me. So we will see how it goes. I need to make my Christmas shopping list. Damn.

Sometimes, I really question how I have made my life turn out. I don't even realize what is right and wrong anymore.

To elaborate on my holiday is was fantastic. My English teacher quit so I left school early on Friday and did a little shopping at Target. I came back to Matthew's and took a nice long nap. We woke up to find out were we can find some pumpkins in Tuncanock. We could not find anywhere we can buy pumpkins at so we stole some big pumpkins out of a yard. Afterwords we ate pizza, carved only one pumpkin, made pumpkin seeds, ate candy and watched Toxic Avenger. It was a real traditional Halloween minus the trick or treaters.

The next day I had work all day long. Luckily, Paul let me go home at 8. I had some mean customers that day and had to deal with this girl Bre. This girl is a total moron and pisses me off. I'm surprised I didn't end up killing anyone. After work was fun mine and Matty's costumes looked real nice. It was a good night.

ummmmmm....I am extremely hungover. It is wonderful. Hell yeah Halloween.